Things...

My last post about Briq was like more than a week ago. Till now, Briq is not back. We have already decided that he has found a better place for himself. Dah redha... Whatever it is, we hope he is safe and comfortable and happy. Goodbye darling!

Yesterday was my birthday. I turned 37. As always, I am never sad to turn a year older as I am thankful that God has given me the strength, the good health and the happiness that I have now. But somehow, I am learning to stay positive. Negative thoughts always stop me from enjoying moment. Today I read somewhere and somehow I can relate to it. It comes from this small book MUTIARA KATA AL-QARNI.

Jangan bayangkan kebahagiaan yang lebih besar daripada apa yang anda rasakan saat ini, supaya anda tidak kehilangan apa yang anda miliki saat ini. Dan jangan tunggu-tunggu musibah yang akan datang, kerana jika demikian bererti anda ingin mempercepat datangnya kesusahan dan kesedihan.

I am more guilty of the second part than the first. My husband always told me I am not competitive enough which is not true actually. As a normal human being, I do want more than what I have right now but it's not as important as the second part about bad things that I always imagine to happen. When I was young, I always imagine bad things to happen during my happy times. And it did happen once when my dad passed away 2 weeks after I got married. Somehow that had an impact on me till now. Sometimes, I told my husband that I am scared what will happen to me if something happens to him. And the thought lingers that I am worried everytime he goes to work and come back home. I am always worried.... and I think it's about time for me to be positive and stop having such thoughts!

We are going for a trip tomorrow or rather later today. We are going to Phuket to celebrate my birthday and hubby needs a break too. He needs it cos he is still doing his work as I am typing this. *sigh*

It took me weeks to decide on which hotel to stay as I am paranoid about this and that. I read so many reviews till I can read no more. At last I made the decision, we booked and I am not going to think about it anymore till I reach Phuket tomorrow.

I have to stop these negative thoughts! Go!!